My Declaration of Independence

I had an epiphany of sorts recently. I am actually really happy with my current relationship status... or lack thereof.

I'm single, and have been for almost three months. I haven't been on any dates, I don't know of anyone I have any interest in dating. If I am not at work, more often than not, I am at home. And I am seriously, 100% fine with it.

I have no desire to be with anyone right now. I don't yearn for a guy of my own when I see a couple holding hands or doing some couply thing. I haven't even pondered how nice it would be to have a boyfriend that I could drag with me to the neighborhood block party I am supposed to go to (where I don't know anyone). I recently was reading about a tango class and I always wanted to take tango (or just about any dance) classes, but you have to have a partner. So I said "Aww, I need a boyfriend," and almost immediately thought... not really.

If I had a boyfriend, I'd have to spend time with him. I'd have to go places with him and do things I'm not really interested in. Like see Hellboy 2. I'd have to go to restaurants and watch everyone else eat yummy stuff and order mashed potatoes.

Part of the reason is my current health problem. I don't feel like doing very much. But also... I'm really content staying home with my dog and more or less staying on top of my housework. Netflix helps... my life pretty much revolves around it.

Anyway... I'm actually really content with this. For reals. Back when "Single" came out (Natasha Bedingfield... quite catchy tune) I was all digging it. It was a couple of years ago, before I met Loser Boy (I'll have to write several blogs on him someday) and totally embraced it, even as I made it my ringtone in hopes that some hot guy would hear it and totally love my confidence and taste in music (because he would see that, to me, a ringtone is never just a ringtone, but actually a meaningful expression of what was in my head and heart) and then I wouldn't be single. And then post-Loser Boy, I always wanted to be happy to be single, but that never quite worked.

But now, I am not looking for anyone. I don't even entertain the idea of a date. And if Loser Boy tried, I wouldn't have a problem staying away.

And it feels SO KICK ASS!